I have an unreasoning fear of hornets. Don’t ask me why. I couldn’t tell you. I’m not afraid of being stung. Honey bees and bumblebees I find
adorable. But hornets, well, they bring
on some very girly screaming and shuddering.
I have been known to abandon my young children in their strollers on the
playground and run when one I hear the low drone of a yellow jacket.
Really, the hornets are the only blight on late summer for
me. Mid August through to Hallowe’en is my favourite time of
year. Mellow days, cool nights, blue
skys, white puffy clouds. The fields are
filled with golden rod and my favourite fall flower, the wild purple
aster. Birds begin their wheeling and
spinning, filling the air with black winged acrobatics as they gather for their
migration to warmer climes. The squirrels
are busy digging up my garden and littering my porch with walnut casings.
There are pumpkins and squash and melons. Everywhere you look the bounty of the earth
is overflowing, in farmer’s markets, road side stalls, fall fairs. Children walk to school in hoodies and walk
home in short sleeves. Frost greets us
in the mornings and by late afternoon I see friends sipping coffees on outdoor
patios wearing t-shirts and sandals.
Yes, I love this time of year. Except for the hornets. I think it’s the way they move. They hover, and buzz, and come right at you,
with no fear. They smell, and dart, move
away, come back, smell some more. They
are not intimidated by my swatting them.
Maybe that’s it, perhaps I am suspicious of anything one hundredth of my
size that’s not afraid of me. What do
they know that I don’t?
They get aggressive in the early fall. I am told it’s because they are mating
now. You would think if they were mating
they’d show less interest in me and more in other hornets. But alas, each walk to and from school with
my children has become an obstacle course…don’t get too close to the neighbour’s
recycle bin…it’s covered in buzzing, stinging horrors! Move away from those windfall apples under that
tree…my worst nightmares are crawling over the rotting fruit!
Where do these fears come from? Why do we find ourselves overwhelmed by such
unreasonable concerns? I believe in the
balance of nature. I know that the
hornets, like all the other insects, are an important part of our ecosystem, a
beloved piece of God’s creation…but still…
As a result of my over-reaction, my children are now
terrified of these buzzing yellow insects, as well. And that saddens me. Of all the things I want to pass on to my
children, fear was never one of them.
Sometimes I think we encounter these fears in order to
overcome them. As I was walking home
today a favourite piece of scripture kept running through my head, from Pslam
104:
“ How many are your works, Lord! In wisdom you made them
all; the earth
is full of your creatures.”
I
was reminded today that we were not created for fear. We were created for love. We were created to care for this fragile
creation. We were created to respect and
cherish all life. So tomorrow I promise
to do better. I promise to face my
fears, to show my children that what God created is always good. I vow to look a hornet in the eye and wish
him a good day! I have my doubts about
this plan, but I’ll trust in God’s wisdom and I’ll let you know how it goes!
To be continued tomorrow…Good night friends!
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